Dear Dad:
I will never forgive myself for not being with you when you passed. I missed you by 15 minutes. If I hadn't stayed on that phone call so long I would have been there, holding your hand as you took your last breath. This is something that eats away inside me every day and I don't know what to do to "fix" it. I'm so, so sorry. Hopefully when we meet again all will be forgiven.
Love
Vixi-your baby girl
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Dear Best Friend:
I was in a one hour seminar today and when I was asked "what inspires you?" I replied, "My mother and my best friend." Sure Mom and I are friends but it's nothing like the deep friendship I share with you. Not a day goes by that I don't recall your shining smile. It helps me through the day. Thank you for sticking with me, no matter what mood I'm in.

I know I've been quiet and I pray you understand just how frightened I am. I have a doctor's appt on Fri Feb 15 and at that time I'm hoping to get my scan results. I pray they are good, but until then my insides are churning and I feel the need to hide away. I don't know why.....do all cancer patients go through this?

Thank you for respecting me and I hope you are not mad at me for backing away. I will be in touch soon, I promise.

Love you lots
other me
xoxo