That is so awful, I hope you can figure out how the dogs got out and put an end to that. Perhaps the second one went looking for the first? Everyone at pet talk understands why you're having a tough time - I wouldn't expect you to get over it quickly. I'm sure your 3rd dog and yourself are upset for each other's loss as well as your own. Don't feel bad about grieving; grieve as long as you need. A new dog sounds like a good idea - it will help relieve some pain but of course is not a replacement.