bnormal, I am just finding this post and want to tell you how very sad I am that you have lost your special friend. The loss of a pet is devastating no matter whether suddenly or expected due to old age/illness etc. Each time I have lost one of my special furry friends the feeling was indescribable. For the longest time I would walk past my husband, just going about our normal day to day routines, and we would stop and hug each other and cry. It took a long, long time to get past that. Even today I miss them so. Please feel free to come here to mourn. We have all gone through this and you are with friends. ((((HUGS))))