Quote Originally Posted by Orangutango
Thanks again everyone.

crow_noir, it's not Dance that I'm angry with. I love her, and I know it's not her fault at all. She's a great pup, a little irritating at times, but still a great pup. I certainly wouldn't want her to go anywhere. I guess I feel I'm just sort of preventing myself from becoming too attached to her for some reason, and I'm not sure why. It's really hard to explain.

Devan, I felt the same way when I got Logan. I swore I would never, ever get attached to her, like I did Cody. Now, I sing "you made me love you..I didn't want to do it" (an old song you may not know).

I'm no shrink, but what you're feeling is perfectly normal. I felt "deserted" when I lost Cody. I felt betrayed although it wasn't his fault, of course. But the pain was so severe, and the memories, happy but excruciating. I will be totally honest, it takes a while to recover, but with each passing day, it does get better. Your wound is still deep. My bet is that you gave Tango infinite love and attention. We all know you did. You musn't think, in your grief, that you "shoulda, woulda, coulda" because you did. Nothing we can say will heal your heart right now. But Dance needs you too, and you will feel close to her when you least expect it.

Whether anyone thinks I'm loony, or not, I will admit I've had "Cody sightings" in various ways, and altho it's been 4 years, he's always with me. Tango wrangled into our hearts and will always be with us too, Devan. *Hugs*