I doubt very much that it was. She was a very young dog. All she knew was that she was young and *something* happened to her. Of course she was terrified. In the wild what happened to her probably would have meant a slow painful death.

Bodies are like machines though, they're not perfect.

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Thanks again everybody. I'm doing much better today compared to the rest of the week, though I'm still angry/sad that this had to happen to Tango. She was such a good girl. It's hard to think that this time last Sunday was the last time I'd ever throw the ball for her again. Bed time is without a doubt the most difficult part of my day. People keep telling me that "she knew it was her time to go", and I shouldn't feel bad (though I understand they don't mean anything bad by it). She really didn't have any idea though. She looked terrified and confused, with a face that said "help me, I don't know what's happening".

I feel horrible any time I do anything with Dance for some reason, be it combing her, playing with her, taking her for a walk, whatever. I don't understand why and I wish that would go away. I want to be able to have fun with a dog again and just enjoy their company without feeling so bad about what happened.
Tango was obviously very special to you. What you're feeling is what i consider to be a form of jealousy. I felt it horribly after King went. I really should have waited longer to foster after King went. I felt so much hatred and anger towards the foster dog... as if it were her fault King had died. ... Even though she didn't come until after he was gone. I wanted nothing to do with her. It's been almost a year... and I still feel that same way sometimes. Would you be able to have someone take care of Dance for you for about a month so that you can mourn? I think it would be really beneficial for your healing and for your future bond with Dance if you didn't have her around right now. Just until these feelings calm down for you. It might be helpful to sort out your head and just take some time for yourself.

*hugs*