new update #36: Finally doing better!

[jennielynn1970]

Oh Kirsten, I'm so sorry that you are in so much pain. I had to have surgery when I was 21 for precancerous growths on my uterus, and had to keep a close eye on everything since then... I was good about doctor visits until about 2-3 years ago, and haven't been back since . I get so nervous while there, I hyperventilate and everything. I loved my gyno, then while working part time at the Moravian Bookshop in Bethlehem, he came in with a co-worker of mine. Since then, they've married, and whenever I went back to see him, I'd be on the table and he'd be like "So, how are so and so doing at school?" and it just made me feel weird! Like, does he go home and say "Well, while I had Jenn on the table today..." I dunno... I'm just weird I guess, lol.

I can also sympathize with you feeling depressed. Depression can make such a huge difference with how you recover, and the speed with which you recover. I hope you can find something to elevate your mood (whether natural or medicinal). A lot of people don't realize how debilitating depression can be...

Big hugs going out to you for a faster recovery and more relief for your pain. I hope your work understands how important it is for you to recuperate fully and that your health and well-being is more important than rushing you to do something that may be have long term repercussions that are even worse.

[dukedogsmom]

I'm sorry I haven't checked in sooner with you. I hope things get better with you soon. I haven't read the whole thread. Will you have to have another operation? I hope you can get rid of your pain soon. I know that must be so discouraging after just having an operation. I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better. Just take one day at a time.

[Rachel]

Just checking in to see how you are doing, Kirsten. I do hope that the worst is now over and that you can tell that you are on the way to recovery from the surgery.

[Kirsten]

Thank you very much for your comments, and for sharing your experiences with me. It helped a lot to read that others had this weird feeling, too after such a surgery.

Well, meanwhile, I'm at home for two weeks, and there is some improvement, but not as much as I hoped for. Some days are better, but the next day is always a relapse, it's very frustrating. The pain is still there, but it is more bearable now. Still not sure if I'll be able to go back to work next week; I'm not sure if I'll be able to sit on a chair for 9 hours.

Another problem now is depression. I do not know whether it comes from my hormon levels being messed up now that one ovary is missing, or from the pain and exhaustion, and boredom here at home. Also, the thought that I was so close to having cancer is traumatic as well.

Kirsten

[dukedogsmom]

I think you should call your surgeon and see if the hospital offers some kind of counseling for people that have been in your situation. There's bound to be something like that there. Also, don't overdo on the days you're feeling better. That's how you get a lot worse the next day. I learned that after I had my hysterectomy. And if you don't feel like you can't return to work next week, don't rush yourself. You don't want to get worse, you know? I hope things get better for you soon.

[pitc9]

I'm so sorry you're going through all of this... I wish I could wave a magic wand and make it all go away.

gentle {{hugs}} to you and wishing you a speedy recovery!

[Catlady711]

I'm so sorry that you are dealing with the depression and pain. I hope your doctors are able to figure out the problem and give you some medication that will relive both symptoms.

I only know one person that has had endometriosis (sp?) but she had a full hystorectomy (sp?) and did not have as many problems with her surgery as I recall. I do however have an aunt that has had multiple surgeries, although not for this particular problem, and she has experienced a similar type of pain though, but in her case it was adheasions (sp?) casing it. I dunno if that would be the case with you though, but might be worth asking your doctor about.

I really hope this trial in your life is over soon and you get the blessed relief from the pain and depression so you can go back to posting those beautiful pictures and being happy again.