thank you all. it's not easy to remember I'm remembered when nearly all people surrounding me don't treat me right or left me. I know I can be a very strong, emotional person sometimes, especially with everything going on and two (deaf/hearing) worlds struggling to balance on my both shoulders, but only if they understood. then I'm just alone again. and I just found out that all of my relatives are still in bay area - they all know I am here.. when did they saw me? write me? said hi? I just don't understand. not even what "family" means either. oh well, my problem I guess. my sister and I aren't that close, she's too busy to let me be part of her life anyway.

yeah.. I have contacted my school but I haven't heard from the best person - my school counselor who would chip up everything for me - I emailed his supervisor about it, I hope nothing happened to him during the summer. I got responses from three teachers out of six, all suggested me the same; skip the quarter. not a great advice for me.. if they knew me, they may help me a little better. I am always, always late at every quarter but always make it little after the end. guarantee.

my job, my bosses said if I can't make to three retreats (all first weekends in september) or to our first two executive board meetings they'll have to find a replacement. I was elected as the director of communications for all 2,400 deaf students at my school through 2007 to end of 2008. I am responsible for arranging all events along with other deaf universites and preparing a trip to thailand to educate and empower deaf kids there. they need me there to start at the beginning ..

so sitting here looking at my black purplish knee, I don't know..

kalei, I've been seeing your siggy and wondering if it'd be your baby soon.. big congratulations on your new horse!! you definitely deserved this dream coming true. is his name midnight masqua? have a blast with him.