Soo Looking Furrward to Surgery!! [GOING Home..]

[Kalei]

Oh Gina, it just tears me up inside to know all that you are going through, you are such a strong person, and I know you can make it through this. Man, if I could give you a home, I would let you stay as soon as possible.

You are definately in my prayers and here is a pic of my Bobo and Kalypso to maybe brighten your day a little

[Catty1]

Gina - Kelly's idea of just staying in your room and away from the negativity is a good one...

I know you are just surviving right now...I hope that a solution has presented itself.

If the doctors have said to take the meds, take them!

HUGS and prayers!

C

[sandragonfly]

I thank you all tearly and dearly. I can't go bed until I tell you how so much encouraging this thread is.. overwhelming. I'll have to read throughoutly the last few posts/reminders again tomorrow. especially the pictures!

I would write more but I just got in the bed, fixed my knee on a pillow and need to try to go to sleep now - crummy tummy and a little headachy. I didn't had a good day yesterday or today because I didn't sleep great last night - I collasped once again by the sidewalk dragging myself over to a neighbor for help. I am okay - this wasn't something I wanted to update about, so I hope to come back with a better news. sooner and to thank you all again.

(((taking all in, hugs))),
..gina (who's ing a little now) and sleepyhead crayola

[G535]

Keep smiling, you'll get through this ok!

Good night!

[sandragonfly]

I had to come back and read all posts again, THANKYOU. love loved all the pictures too.

I guess I was not the girl everyone talks about here because this is my first disaster that I had NO control over my body - pretty much immobilized - with my constant injured knee and as much as I promised myself to heal the best, I don't and didn't fight back.. or else I would have had done a lot more tendon damages. no one speaks my language, nor lives at least by my culture here - totally stressed and exhausted to see which path I should turn onto. the room now I see and writing my book..

can I vent just a little here? I was suppose to be staying at my (arrested and now deceased) friend's, but then ended up winding with my (suicidal and missing) friend and lost ark. the following week, half of my money was stolen which we're still working on - I barely could live off on food or gas and got in the worst accident. most important part of this road trip - my car, thunder was considered "totalled" for a week, took a month to repair - during that, we stuck out in country far away from camping sites/friends we didn't had chance to visit. for my cats' sake and had an unexpected surgery.. here, you know the rest after. and last recently what had stomped me in the deepest hole that two of my closest friends who finally "dumped" on me because things and I as a friend were too stressful for them.

I never really believe this quote, you're never alone. I am all I really have. for going through so much, too much for them, living like I have eight lives, handling different worlds.. but some of you are right, I shouldn't be digging anymore.. hopes aren't down there, the miraculous "treasures" should be out there and some blessings to carry on while I move ahead.. things happen.

as of today, I only can walk, bearing 30% of weight. with pressure (near to serve) pain, they wouldn't give me stronger killers - because of high pain tolerance. sigh, hematoma takes forever. my school starts on the third of september and if I don't get back in time, I'll lose my dream job. for good. very stressful.

this summer adventure just didn't went the way we expected it to be and I miss my ark dearly. I didn't want to believe that it almost has been a month I haven't thought, heard or saw a name of my cats.. when I think of them, I get anxious, worried and heartbroken easily. I can't, and thinking of myself before them for first time ever was the biggest change for me too.

this is why I am especially dragged and lost today. always on-going and on-going ... as I have always thank you everyone for dear words and everything you could spare and share. sometimes there is a time where you need reminders of love and take the bad with the good even when it's so painful. I'll need to keep remembering that .. okay, I should stop for now.

((((thank you all again)))) and hugs! I hope you won't stop talking too, not until I get out of here. it's so lonely here - I wish the coverage is good around here so I'd be able to respond and talk through all my PMs too. soon I hope, I'm still working on getting out of here. and am taking my killers every couple hours. I don't know why I listened to them.

[kittycats_delight]

Gina please remember

[Daisy and Delilah]

Thanks for checking in, Gina. I can tell you're getting a little better. keep up the good work. Stay positive. One day, all things are going to be good for you. You can do this!!! Stay strong!!!
{{{{{{{GINA}}}}}}}

[Catty1]

Gina - what about your sister? You looked after her daughter for a while.

If she is close to where your Ark is, maybe you could recuperate there - or she might have an idea?

{{{hugs}}}

[Husky_mom]

glad to hear you are a bit cheered up........ hope everything gets better......

have you tried contacting the school so they know why you might not be there on time?? I think they should understand......

but anyway, the priority here is YOU!!...... take care and be patient....you are NOT alone...... even if we can´t be actually there with you we are there in spirit......((HUGS))

[Kalei]

Gina its great to hear from you again! And you sound like you are just slightly better which is good, and I hope that you are. While you've been gone something great happened, I got a horse (which has been my dream since I was a kid) and I thought it might cheer you up to see some pics of my new addition, he is a beautiful paint







And I don't know if you seen this one or not, this is Bobo and Kalypso in our dryer


Gina I hope you enjoyed the pictures and please please keep getting better, I know prayers work, and alot of us are praying for you everyday.

[pitc9]

{{{HUGS}}}
Glad to hear you're on your way to feeling better!!

[Catty1]

{{{{hugs}}}} Gina!

[phesina]

{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}} and PURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRS to you, Gina. I wish you could come back here and stay in my little apartment with my four cats! We are all sending you our best wishes and healing, strengthening energies.

Love,
Pat and cats

[Catty1]

Gina - maybe you have already done this. But contacting your school, and telling them that the surgery had complications - that would give them a heads up!

Surely they can help out somewhat...after all, professional dancers have a lot of injuries, and still stay with their companies...and you went through this so you could dance more and better!

I'm just saying tell them now and not the last minute. If they have a website, you might be able to find medical grounds for temporary leave...surely they wouldn't be that harsh and just dump you.

Your career will just happen a little later...

Would the doctor or surgeon there give you a letter that you can send as well?

I know this is a huge stress on you...and I think once you confront it you will feel a lot better!

[sandragonfly]

thank you all. it's not easy to remember I'm remembered when nearly all people surrounding me don't treat me right or left me. I know I can be a very strong, emotional person sometimes, especially with everything going on and two (deaf/hearing) worlds struggling to balance on my both shoulders, but only if they understood. then I'm just alone again. and I just found out that all of my relatives are still in bay area - they all know I am here.. when did they saw me? write me? said hi? I just don't understand. not even what "family" means either. oh well, my problem I guess. my sister and I aren't that close, she's too busy to let me be part of her life anyway.

yeah.. I have contacted my school but I haven't heard from the best person - my school counselor who would chip up everything for me - I emailed his supervisor about it, I hope nothing happened to him during the summer. I got responses from three teachers out of six, all suggested me the same; skip the quarter. not a great advice for me.. if they knew me, they may help me a little better. I am always, always late at every quarter but always make it little after the end. guarantee.

my job, my bosses said if I can't make to three retreats (all first weekends in september) or to our first two executive board meetings they'll have to find a replacement. I was elected as the director of communications for all 2,400 deaf students at my school through 2007 to end of 2008. I am responsible for arranging all events along with other deaf universites and preparing a trip to thailand to educate and empower deaf kids there. they need me there to start at the beginning ..

so sitting here looking at my black purplish knee, I don't know..

kalei, I've been seeing your siggy and wondering if it'd be your baby soon.. big congratulations on your new horse!! you definitely deserved this dream coming true. is his name midnight masqua? have a blast with him.