Soo Looking Furrward to Surgery!! [GOING Home..]

[Kalei]

Oh Gina, it just tears me up inside to know all that you are going through, you are such a strong person, and I know you can make it through this. Man, if I could give you a home, I would let you stay as soon as possible.

You are definately in my prayers and here is a pic of my Bobo and Kalypso to maybe brighten your day a little

[Catty1]

Gina - Kelly's idea of just staying in your room and away from the negativity is a good one...

I know you are just surviving right now...I hope that a solution has presented itself.

If the doctors have said to take the meds, take them!

HUGS and prayers!

C

[sandragonfly]

I thank you all tearly and dearly. I can't go bed until I tell you how so much encouraging this thread is.. overwhelming. I'll have to read throughoutly the last few posts/reminders again tomorrow. especially the pictures!

I would write more but I just got in the bed, fixed my knee on a pillow and need to try to go to sleep now - crummy tummy and a little headachy. I didn't had a good day yesterday or today because I didn't sleep great last night - I collasped once again by the sidewalk dragging myself over to a neighbor for help. I am okay - this wasn't something I wanted to update about, so I hope to come back with a better news. sooner and to thank you all again.

(((taking all in, hugs))),
..gina (who's ing a little now) and sleepyhead crayola

[G535]

Keep smiling, you'll get through this ok!

Good night!

[sandragonfly]

I had to come back and read all posts again, THANKYOU. love loved all the pictures too.

I guess I was not the girl everyone talks about here because this is my first disaster that I had NO control over my body - pretty much immobilized - with my constant injured knee and as much as I promised myself to heal the best, I don't and didn't fight back.. or else I would have had done a lot more tendon damages. no one speaks my language, nor lives at least by my culture here - totally stressed and exhausted to see which path I should turn onto. the room now I see and writing my book..

can I vent just a little here? I was suppose to be staying at my (arrested and now deceased) friend's, but then ended up winding with my (suicidal and missing) friend and lost ark. the following week, half of my money was stolen which we're still working on - I barely could live off on food or gas and got in the worst accident. most important part of this road trip - my car, thunder was considered "totalled" for a week, took a month to repair - during that, we stuck out in country far away from camping sites/friends we didn't had chance to visit. for my cats' sake and had an unexpected surgery.. here, you know the rest after. and last recently what had stomped me in the deepest hole that two of my closest friends who finally "dumped" on me because things and I as a friend were too stressful for them.

I never really believe this quote, you're never alone. I am all I really have. for going through so much, too much for them, living like I have eight lives, handling different worlds.. but some of you are right, I shouldn't be digging anymore.. hopes aren't down there, the miraculous "treasures" should be out there and some blessings to carry on while I move ahead.. things happen.

as of today, I only can walk, bearing 30% of weight. with pressure (near to serve) pain, they wouldn't give me stronger killers - because of high pain tolerance. sigh, hematoma takes forever. my school starts on the third of september and if I don't get back in time, I'll lose my dream job. for good. very stressful.

this summer adventure just didn't went the way we expected it to be and I miss my ark dearly. I didn't want to believe that it almost has been a month I haven't thought, heard or saw a name of my cats.. when I think of them, I get anxious, worried and heartbroken easily. I can't, and thinking of myself before them for first time ever was the biggest change for me too.

this is why I am especially dragged and lost today. always on-going and on-going ... as I have always thank you everyone for dear words and everything you could spare and share. sometimes there is a time where you need reminders of love and take the bad with the good even when it's so painful. I'll need to keep remembering that .. okay, I should stop for now.

((((thank you all again)))) and hugs! I hope you won't stop talking too, not until I get out of here. it's so lonely here - I wish the coverage is good around here so I'd be able to respond and talk through all my PMs too. soon I hope, I'm still working on getting out of here. and am taking my killers every couple hours. I don't know why I listened to them.

[kittycats_delight]

Gina please remember

[Daisy and Delilah]

Thanks for checking in, Gina. I can tell you're getting a little better. keep up the good work. Stay positive. One day, all things are going to be good for you. You can do this!!! Stay strong!!!
{{{{{{{GINA}}}}}}}

[Catty1]

Gina - what about your sister? You looked after her daughter for a while.

If she is close to where your Ark is, maybe you could recuperate there - or she might have an idea?

{{{hugs}}}

[sandragonfly]

thank you all. it's not easy to remember I'm remembered when nearly all people surrounding me don't treat me right or left me. I know I can be a very strong, emotional person sometimes, especially with everything going on and two (deaf/hearing) worlds struggling to balance on my both shoulders, but only if they understood. then I'm just alone again. and I just found out that all of my relatives are still in bay area - they all know I am here.. when did they saw me? write me? said hi? I just don't understand. not even what "family" means either. oh well, my problem I guess. my sister and I aren't that close, she's too busy to let me be part of her life anyway.

yeah.. I have contacted my school but I haven't heard from the best person - my school counselor who would chip up everything for me - I emailed his supervisor about it, I hope nothing happened to him during the summer. I got responses from three teachers out of six, all suggested me the same; skip the quarter. not a great advice for me.. if they knew me, they may help me a little better. I am always, always late at every quarter but always make it little after the end. guarantee.

my job, my bosses said if I can't make to three retreats (all first weekends in september) or to our first two executive board meetings they'll have to find a replacement. I was elected as the director of communications for all 2,400 deaf students at my school through 2007 to end of 2008. I am responsible for arranging all events along with other deaf universites and preparing a trip to thailand to educate and empower deaf kids there. they need me there to start at the beginning ..

so sitting here looking at my black purplish knee, I don't know..

kalei, I've been seeing your siggy and wondering if it'd be your baby soon.. big congratulations on your new horse!! you definitely deserved this dream coming true. is his name midnight masqua? have a blast with him.

[Kalei]

Thanks Gina I am pretty sure his name is going to be Midnight Masquerade, I still haven't found out what his registered name is, and if I really like it, then I may just keep it to that. I just can't wait til October when I get him

And its so great to hear from you again. I am glad that you are well enough to keep coming on pt and updating us Meanwhile to hopefully put a smile on your face, look at my new little guy, he is the cutest thing! I hope you find him cute too And keep feeling better Gina.



And Yawning:

[jennielynn1970]

yeah.. I have contacted my school but I haven't heard from the best person - my school counselor who would chip up everything for me - I emailed his supervisor about it, I hope nothing happened to him during the summer. I got responses from three teachers out of six, all suggested me the same; skip the quarter. not a great advice for me.. if they knew me, they may help me a little better. I am always, always late at every quarter but always make it little after the end. guarantee..

Just thinking, but most colleges have an "Independent Study" type of course in each of their areas. Is there a way that you would be able to do something like that in each of the courses you were supposed to take so that you can do it where you are at.... OR... Distance Learning?? Can you do something with your courses where you can contribute from where you are, do all the work, reading, etc... and email or send your assignments to them? If you get a medical release telling them that it is best you aren't moving around, hopefully they'd be able to work something out for you.

Not sure it would be an option, but it's a thought.

Hope things are going better, and that the knee is feeling better.

[rg_girlca]

Gina, I hope this puts a smile on your face.
Remember are sweet widdle PeaPod.



One day at a time Gina, one day at a time.

Prayers, postitive thoughts and {{{{{{HUGS}}}}}} still on the way.

[sandragonfly]

no dear, you didn't put them in wrong thread, karen the mayor have alerted me about the other thread [photos for gina] but that thread, pages full of pictures, impossible to upload with sooo limited coverage here. but this thread has a few, and the more pictures are posted here, the slower my pager can upload. but the good news is that I am at the library! so I see the pictures bigger and better now, and going to check the other thread in a bit! I loved the video, it made me SMILE seeing dasher wagging so hard. I am so proud he has you and you have him - you both couldn't get anymore happier.

jenn, that cannot be an option .. I really want my job, I tried last year but there was someone else who took over because I was a newbie. I still have a week and half .. and am getting better so we'll see.

kalei, your fishie is soo cute! seriously, I miss fishses .. I smiled at it just when he looks at me. I had seven goldfishs for seven years.. I can't wait to own some again once I have a new tank.

rgirlca, now that picture stucks in my mind. SO cute. it never is enough to see it once - glad you posted it again. I know he's a huge boy now. yes, one thing at a time .. thank you and (((hugs))) back.

[sirrahbed]

Each day sounds a little bit better I am holding out hope that you will be able to get home and claim that dream job. YAY for the computer at the library Take care gina.

(((((( H U G S )))))

[Donnaj4962]

Oh Gina, I am so glad to read that you are up and about... but PLEASE, don't overdo it! I know you want to be better, but remember that patience is a virtue! Healing takes time, especially after all that you have been through.

Keep healing.... and I am continuing my prayers for your recovery!