Ah, I love hubby too much. Stupid me for falling for a man with kids! People warned me..... I should have listened. All I can say to people who are dating someone with kids: RUN!

Thats not quite fair. I get along with the youngest fabulously. She's been wonderful. Why couldn't I have 3 kids like her? No, I get one who runs away at 21 years old and refuses to acknowledge I exist. Another who has a kid and doesn't see anything I do for her or her son. I guess it COULD be worse. They could all be drug dealers and thieves and a whole host of other things.

I just hate living where you can could cut the tension with a knife. I found its easier to retreat to my room rather than say or do something to set off fireworks. I don't even spend time online anymore because I just want to hie away in my little room and keep out of trouble.

Thankfully, hubby is furious with the state of his kids this summer. I think he's FINALLY seeing what they are like to me. He's actually never been around this much to actually SEE it. I told him about it but I think he thought I was being dramatic.