I am so very sorry Nicole . The deep love and devotion you have for Sheena and the pups is very evident in every meticulous detail you have worked so hard on, even before they were born. Every post about them and their coming has been filled with love and commitment to do the absolute best possible for each one. So I know how horribly it must be hurting your heart. It wasn't even just five days you have loved this pup, you've been loving each and every pup since you learned for sure she was pregnant, before you ever saw them. Each is equally precious and important. Little Golden will be well looked after at the Rainbow Bridge. I don't think anyone here feels you are to blame, but I know how hard it can be to forgive one's self. I hope the love and support here can help you do that. Sending warm thoughts and hugs to you.