Thanks everyone. I know I am taking this harder then normal and I also know why. My disability is the main cause for how this is affecting me. I know that but I can't change that. I know it is natures way and accidents happen. But for me knowing something and feeling something are two totally dfferent things.

Golden was only 5 days old but it is amazing how much personality they show even at that age. And in 5 days it is amazing how attached you can get to these little guys.

I am there for the others and they have just as much of my heart as Golden does. Just because tragity happens doesn't mean my responsibility stops. They need me. But it doesn't change how guilty I still feel.

Thank you all for your support. I so need it right now. I am trying to focus on doing as we have been for the past week but it is hard. It is nice to know I have friends here who can understand and support me when things like this happen.
Nicole & Sheena & puppies