It breaks my heart to post this.
We brought Sherman home to be with us. It is very likely he will be making his trip to the RB very soon. Seeing him, I would say it's more a matter of hours than days.
Aside from oxygen, there is nothing more they can do for him at the hospital. They are encouraging us to wait until the test results are back (mon. or tues) before "making a final decision", but I think they're just trying to be gentle with us. You can see it in their faces.
While the specialists will not make a 100% diagnosis until the tests are complete, it appears that our boy has a substancial mass of cancerous tumors in his lungs. They believe it's spread to his bones and appears to be growing rapidly. The difference in his x-rays & ultrasounds from just days ago is, in their words, "impressive". They are sure enough that they are not beginning any therapy. They said if it turns out that he does have a fungal infection, his prognosis is extremely poor for recovery at all, and can't predict how much permanent damage is likely. They keep saying his case is so unusual, they don't see things like this very often. I just wish it was not happening to our Sherman.
He is resting, I can't really say comfortably, but he is here with us. He does seem happy to be home in his own surroundings. Star is just watching him from a bit of a distance, she looks so sad. We all are.
So, in between crying hysterically and trying to be stoic, I felt I should let all Sherman's friends here on PT know what's going on. They've sent meds for inflamation & pain home with us, (my mother had cancer that spread to her bones, so I know it's painful) and we want to do right by him. He deserves no less. It's just so damn hard to let go.
Thank you for all your prayers,
Pat, JoJoe, & Star
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