just .. wow.

down back to that road because of some people just don't know how to back off.

we have not updated because we haven't found my cats or my friend yet - I had nothing new to post - and cindy was keeping you posted.

staci, what you did was not very right and disrespectful. nobody should deserve any of bash words of yours any way because I wouldn't do that - if you don't have anything nice to say, just don't. horrible or not. I mean, what if this disaster is true?

by the way, I did not ask chocopup to post prayers - because I knew something like this would come up but, she offered and I thought I'd try it one more time. and I am not sure what it has to do with my mental illness - everyone has it and they just deal with it differently as I take this as expected.

it has been always hard for me to ask prayers because it's always something. what did you expected? I never felt it was fair also, because I shouldn't lived like this or to worry my friends all the time. what am I suppose to do? give you out the friend's name who was arrested publically? my auto insurance number? nobody of you had asked me for the information either. or send you pictures of all events I mentioned, even a home without cats and documentations? sorry, for and of my other events you read, this is no win-win. you can either take it or leave it, all I was hoping for the prayers and thoughtful words I can please.

even though life has been treating me so good since at the beginning of this year, except for my friend's death last february, I have never expect all of you to believe this or be supportive at least. now, for how this turned, I definitely don't see why I should post any more updates but will continue to do so via PMs for anyone wants to know and with my roadtrip thread.

again, if you don't believe or don't buy, it's not worthing a time posting in or read this thread - nothing will change or stop me from hoping for the best.

all I can say is, only if you were there.