Totally freaking out!! I'm HOMELESS!! Hes trying to steal all my belongings!!

[king2005]

That's horrible the cop was being all mean to you. Wish i could have been there to slap him for you (and have been able to get away with it. )

I guess the silver lining is that Chad was being the tiniest bit civil. ( Maybe he was getting smug satisfaction from the meanie cop. Blah. )

*comfort hugs*

I wish i could somehow get you the medicine you need. (Unfortunately i don't have connections in the pharmaceutical world like i do in the dog rescue world... not that those really get me far either.)

Ooooooooh! Joe pics! THANK YOU!!!! *tight squeezy hugs*

I sooo understand about wearing baggy clothing to hide skinnyness and not being able to put any real weight on. It's embarrasing.

And girl, unless he tells you directly how do you KNOW that you're not his type?!

It was either the cop yelling or the fact that I said I have pictures that go WAY back to prove that what I'm saying is in fact mine. + I told the cop (infront of Chad) that I will be bringing this to court, because all I want are my things & my things only... I know I didn't say that earlier as I forgot I said it... Anxiety makes me forget & I get memories back randomly & THEN things make sence :P

I'm sooo excited about getting my meds!! I want to have a more normal life for once!


Thats what Joe said. Hes been to Dr. after Dr. & been on all those bulking up diets & he puts on nothing. He said hes lucky if he can put on 5lbs & its even harder to keep it on... Now I do know he is CRAZY hyper & active... All he wants to do is walk when we hang out. I love the walks, as he knows downtown Toronto fairly well, so he shows me the sights (all by foot).. we are planning a day or 2 trip to go to the island (don't remember the name, but its part of Toronto) & we're gonna walk the whole thing! We're not sure if we're gonna bring the rest of the gang, as they usually walk WAY behind us, cause they are lazy lazy walkers.. I'm short & not a fast walker & I can keep up with Joe with no issues... the other guys are a lot taller then I am & ya... Joe & I could easly loose them just by walking! LOL I saw how thin he is when he removed 1 of the 2 shirts he was waring (teehee I know I'm so bad) & damn.. looks like he hasn't eatten in years, you can see all his bones He hates when we go to Gio's & the grandmother kidnaps Joe.. she makes him eat until he nearly pukes HAHAHAHA... She thinks hes aniraxic (sp )... we all laugh at him However Dan's mother does the same to me.. she thinks I don't eat enough.. & I'm over weight too

I know I'm not his type, cause ummmmm... I cannot say how I know on PT forums, but I do know.. + I've had a lot of talks with Joe about Anxiety & abuse, as we both went through that with our longterm partners, & we talked about relationships & what we're looking for... Not sure how on earth we got into that convo, but we talk a lot when we're driving a fair distance... This Sat should be interesting.. I'm driving him to Hamilton so he can spend his vacation with family & old friends.. I don't have a sterio in my car, so all we can do is talk for the 45min trip...

I know we get a long GREAT(really really great)... Sun was the first time that he well... touched me (NOT THAT WAY!!! ) hehe ya he grabbed my face & messed my hair.. then the whole group was grabbing my face, as it was attack Jess for some random reason LOL...

A few people in our group have made comments on how well Joe & I get along & that we are both single ... Karen & Ron (our big Brother type people) have also said the samething, to me anyways. It drives me nuts lol If I had to choose, friend or nothing.. its 100% friend! Love hanging out with him, &/or just relaxing in his room watching tv (he rents the room, so his room is his home, so his bed is the couch lol)...

see what you've done, you've tuned my brain back to the Joe station.. I'll never shut up now

[crow_noir]

Awwwwe, I'm sorries. ...

see what you've done, you've tuned my brain back to the Joe station.. I'll never shut up now

[king2005]

Awwwwe, I'm sorries. ...

I'm gonna con't this Joe thing in another thread, as something has come up & I don't know what to do to help him!

[Pawsitive Thinking]

You may not have much materially but with friends like yours you are rich beyond belief

[king2005]

You may not have much materially but with friends like yours you are rich beyond belief

BM, thats the samething that my dad & my Bankruptcy lady said.

Last Sunday my friends made me feel like a million dollars(even though they only spent 10.00 on me) when it felt like the world was ending. Every since then I got use to the idea that I'll no longer have any possessions, but who needs things when I have awesome friends. Sure I want my things, but I gave up caring too much about it... Luckly Chad's freaky mental issues have calmed down.. I have almost ALL my things out of his place.. tonight will be the last of the things I have to take from his place... Hes still willing to give me all my belongings out of the storage unit...

Do you have any idea how hard it is for me to pretend to be his buddy!!! Its KILLING me, talking all friendly with him & having to talk to him on the phone about anything... Yesterday he called me 5 times at work to talk.. hes called me 3 times just this morning.

I'm gonna keep bitting my tongue until I have all my things. Then I'm gonna end things as civil as I can... there will be no more calling me, no more nothing...

Chad THINKS we can still be friends

[sweetpatata6]

What you need to do is once you have all of your stuff back just kindly tell him that he has violated ALL of your trust and quite frankly, your shocked at him. Tell him that there is no way that you guys can go on pretending like nothing happened, because it hurt you so much inside.

[king2005]

What you need to do is once you have all of your stuff back just kindly tell him that he has violated ALL of your trust and quite frankly, your shocked at him. Tell him that there is no way that you guys can go on pretending like nothing happened, because it hurt you so much inside.

Thats what I want to do.. I want to keep it civil so I don't make him mad, cause like I said before, I cannot risk my car... I need that car to live.

I spent an hour with him today (my lunch hour) & we got to the topic of Axle... I told him it doesn't matter if my new place allows the turtle or not.. Axle has been sentenced to death... I told you before Axle doesn't get any chances. ANY complaint against him is an instant death sentence (he has NO idea I'm fighing for Axle, I wanted to make him feel guilty for risking Axles life!!!! & if I do loose Axle I want him to know its his fault!)... It was crazy hard to spend buddy buddy time with Chad... OMG I wanted to jump out the window I hated it so much... But I need to play things cool, as I want my things.

[crow_noir]

I know it's not the same situation but i kind of know how it feels. It's like when my parents got their divorce and end up putting me in the middle of it. ...and my dad was selling off all the stuff the court ordered him to give back to my mom. Some stuff were treasured trinkets that meant the world to me that i had hoped to inherit some day. ...That wasn't the worst part though. Not even close. Two people i have loved, trusted, and cherished my whole life had changed into horrible psychos with in a couple years time. My life was torn apart. When my mom snapped i lost one of my best friends, my trust in her had forever been swept away.

And yes, to keep things civil, and to try and get some of the object that held fond memories of a better time I did my best to keep my temper with them. I took their phone calls. Sometimes i had to lie about things i knew. I hated it. And they'd try to get all this info from me (mostly it was my father..) and at the end of the phone calls they'd try to let me know how much they love and cherish me. (Really? Well then why are you acting like you are and being manipulative? was what i was thinking.) In the very least i found their behavior disrespectful. ...that's as light as i can put it.

But yes... I understand (i think). Pretending to be something you're not because you have next to no choice if you want things to go even slightly in your favor... sucks horribly!!!

... Do you have any idea how hard it is for me to pretend to be his buddy!!! Its KILLING me, talking all friendly with him & having to talk to him on the phone about anything... Yesterday he called me 5 times at work to talk.. hes called me 3 times just this morning. ...

[king2005]

I know it's not the same situation but i kind of know how it feels. It's like when my parents got their divorce and end up putting me in the middle of it. ...and my dad was selling off all the stuff the court ordered him to give back to my mom. Some stuff were treasured trinkets that meant the world to me that i had hoped to inherit some day. ...That wasn't the worst part though. Not even close. Two people i have loved, trusted, and cherished my whole life had changed into horrible psychos with in a couple years time. My life was torn apart. When my mom snapped i lost one of my best friends, my trust in her had forever been swept away.

And yes, to keep things civil, and to try and get some of the object that held fond memories of a better time I did my best to keep my temper with them. I took their phone calls. Sometimes i had to lie about things i knew. I hated it. And they'd try to get all this info from me (mostly it was my father..) and at the end of the phone calls they'd try to let me know how much they love and cherish me. (Really? Well then why are you acting like you are and being manipulative? was what i was thinking.) In the very least i found their behavior disrespectful. ...that's as light as i can put it.

But yes... I understand (i think). Pretending to be something you're not because you have next to no choice if you want things to go even slightly in your favor... sucks horribly!!!

I'm sorry you had to go through that
My parents divorce turned into WW3 but of a different kind... My dad was civil 100% as he refused to bring any extra stress onto his kids... However my mother wanted to destroy my dad for whatever reason... I was 13 & my sister was 9.. my sister & I went through hell & back.. my mom & counclers tried to force us to say our dad was touching us