Totally freaking out!! I'm HOMELESS!! Hes trying to steal all my belongings!!

[king2005]

Thanks everyone

I had a great weekend. I had lunch with Renos' family (I slept there fri night) & talked more to his mommy (sweet lady). Then I drove Renos' into Malton-Mississauga to the bus stop that Joe takes to work (they work at the same airport), then I went to Ron & Karens (I'm staying there from now on, as they want me near them, so they can keep an eye on me, as they are mad at my eatting habbits). James came over to Ron & Karens & we all watched 3 movies.

The 3 of us slept in(sun morning), I finally felt like having a shower (it had been a LONG 4 days, but I was too stressed to really care), had dinner forced down my throat My goodness I had to eat 2 foot long hot dogs & was suppose to eat 2 corn on the cob, but I was only able to eat the one C.O.T.C.. Ron said ok thats good enough & let me leave (They do the big brother thing, or take in people like me). I met James at Debs place (Joe rents a room there & James stays there for free, as hes from an abusive home & Deb wants him to stay with her as James is doing much better living with her (mentally/emotionally... hes almost ready to get a job...YAY), then we bus'ed to the subway in Toronto & took that to downtown Toronto & walked all over the place to find Renos & then meet the rest of the guys for dinner & bar hopping.

My goodness, the first bar was too much fun HAHAHA! We a had coster fight (we were the ONLY people in the back 1/2 of the bar & we picked up all the costers during the fight, we are clean people & let the waitress know not to touch the mess.. she didn't & we cleaned every single coaster up, including the drink we spilt & the fries we dropped)...

Someone kicked my foot & I said, ok whos playing footsies with me?? Joe gave a funny look & stretched to kick my foot.. However he kicked my shin! I said ouch, you bugger!! Reached down & grabed his foot & PULLED I pulled him off his seat & under the table hehehe Eva was beside me & she pulled off his shoe. I said SWEET, held onto his ankle hard & tickled his foot hehehe (I know hes VERY ticklish there).. he fought & I lost his foot, but had his pant leg.. SO I pulled his pant leg.. Joe started hollering, OMG your pulling my pants off... Eva joined in & we pulled harder hehe Dan got up & pulled Joes arms heheh Joe started shouting, GAH my pants, my pants!! the girls are stripping me!!! Everyone is laughing(even Joe) & James was taking photos of poor Joe heheh

We took about 500 pictures of the whole night.

I attached a few photos... You know you have awesome friends, when they can put a big smile on your face in the worst times of your life!!

Photos:
-Eva & I being happy.
-Eve feeding me a slice of sausage... Yes I know how that looks, it took a lot of poking to get me to do that :P Guys
-& a photo of the WHOLE group at the first bar.. Left-Right: James, Gio, Renos, Eva, Me, Dan & Joe.

I love them all!
Most of us have come from broken homes, dark pasts, or are still living in really rough times. We ALL have emotional issues caused by unpleasent things, so we understand each other & when one starts to go nuts, we get annoyed, but never get angry, cause its only a matter of time until its our turn to go crazy...

[crow_noir]

Yay! So glad to hear that you had a fun weekend!

(pssst... Joe's hot... and looks like one of my bestest friends ever... that I've only seen like once since graduating HS... but that's a long story in and of itself.)

[king2005]

Yay! So glad to hear that you had a fun weekend!

(pssst... Joe's hot... and looks like one of my bestest friends ever... that I've only seen like once since graduating HS... but that's a long story in and of itself.)

I don't even what to type all of what happened last night... Chad was decent at first then we acted like old times (getting a long just fine).. There was a reason for it.. the Cop was HORRIBLE & kept going at me every time I passed by... then he started yelling & yelling & making me feel like shat for things I had NO control over... He put me into an Anxiety attack, the not to pleasent kind... I was shaking, stuttering, holding my fingers & worst of all crying.. I have NO control when this happens... all I wanted to do was run away & hide. Chad was giving me all my things back.. we split spices & things 50/50... I'm getting my shelving back & ALL my things out of his storage unit.


BOY DO I KNOW HE IS HOT hehehe I have a crush on him :P Have for nearly 7 months now lol Thats why when he said his pants were falling off, I pulled harder I know I know, I'm bad

The whole world knows I like him & I know it'll more then likely never happen, & YES I'll never let him know how I feel :P I already know I'm not his type

Heres a few photos for you to gaa gaa over lol

-The group shot is from a couple weekends ago.. Notice how tall he is & how thin he looks.. Well that photo makes him look FAT.. hes like 6' & weighs 120lb.. hes a sheet of paper, he wears baggy clothing to make him look bigger, as he HATES being so thin (its not his fault).

-the one where you kinda see his face... thats when I had his foot & pulled him off his seat & under the table LOL I had to add this as it was too funny not too

[Catty1]

BOY DO I KNOW HE IS HOT

Um - I see the photos (cute) but from the first part you wrote, I am assuming the photos are either of Chad or the Cop.

I'm confoozed!

Glad to hear Chad was being good. Why was the cop in such a bad mood???

[king2005]

Um - I see the photos (cute) but from the first part you wrote, I am assuming the photos are either of Chad or the Cop.

I'm confoozed!

Glad to hear Chad was being good. Why was the cop in such a bad mood???

Nope no photos of Chad or the cops... Just of the fun I had with my friends on Sun (they wanted me to have a good time after this mess with Chad)..

crow_noir said Joe was HOT, so ya I posted more photos for her

The cop didn't want to be there, so he let me know everytime I had to walk past him, or everytime he felt like I needed to know inbetween taking things out of the house. He repeated himself for 2hrs... There was 3 cops at first.. the angry cop's partner was ok to deal with & so was the 3rd cop... They were pushy, but polite.. this angry cop kept raising his voice & being aggressive! I kept telling him I understand & I'm doing my best.

After he put me into anxiety I was walking on the other side of the cars in the driveway (they belong to the people upstairs) & mumbling loudly, that its not my fault I cannot afford meds for my anxiety, that I cannot get a better job cause of my anxiety, I do my best trying to survive with this illness... The angry cops partner was then talking to the angry cop... the angry cop toned down a fair amount... & really toned down when my friend arrived.. The cop lied to her which made me angry (doesn't help my anxiety any), she knew he was lying as she heard what he was saying to me when I was on the phone with him.

[JenBKR]

I am so glad that you have such good friends nearby to help you through this. I am sure that all of this is bringing out the worst of your anxiety. I just hope those benefits at work will kick in soon so you can get the help you need. ((((hugs))))

[king2005]

I am so glad that you have such good friends nearby to help you through this. I am sure that all of this is bringing out the worst of your anxiety. I just hope those benefits at work will kick in soon so you can get the help you need. ((((hugs))))

I get the benefits on July 2ed! I'm so excited! I even get dental

[JenBKR]

I get the benefits on July 2ed! I'm so excited! I even get dental

Yippi! I knew that the date was coming up sometime but I couldn't remember when it was exactly. That will be a big help. Make your doc appt. soon!

[king2005]

Yippi! I knew that the date was coming up sometime but I couldn't remember when it was exactly. That will be a big help. Make your doc appt. soon!

I'll be going into a walkin clinic so there is no appt. to make, as I cannot take time off work to see a dr.
the second I have that paper in my hands, I'm running off to the clinic!

[Catty1]

Jess - my doctor has one day a week where she works into the evening...maybe the clinic could refer you to a clinic with a GP.

I find it's good to have a doc who has known me for a few years.

If you can get the same doc at the walk-in most of the time, that would be great. Can you do that?

It's good you can get started soon!

[JenBKR]

I'll be going into a walkin clinic so there is no appt. to make, as I cannot take time off work to see a dr.
the second I have that paper in my hands, I'm running off to the clinic!

YAY I will be anxious to hear how it all goes

[king2005]

Jess - my doctor has one day a week where she works into the evening...maybe the clinic could refer you to a clinic with a GP.

I find it's good to have a doc who has known me for a few years.

If you can get the same doc at the walk-in most of the time, that would be great. Can you do that?

It's good you can get started soon!

My dr. is off at 3pm (stupid eh?!) Her clinic is WAY too far for me to drive to, so I have to see her before 3pm... The clinics are open until 8 or 9pm, depending on the clinic.

If I could I'd do all this in Ottawa at the clinic near my old job, as I have delt with 2 Dr.s there... The male Dr. Saw me having an anxiety attack & the female Dr. was trying to work with me without meds. They were both great to deal with.

[crow_noir]

That's horrible the cop was being all mean to you. Wish i could have been there to slap him for you (and have been able to get away with it. )

I guess the silver lining is that Chad was being the tiniest bit civil. ( Maybe he was getting smug satisfaction from the meanie cop. Blah. )

*comfort hugs*

I wish i could somehow get you the medicine you need. (Unfortunately i don't have connections in the pharmaceutical world like i do in the dog rescue world... not that those really get me far either.)

Ooooooooh! Joe pics! THANK YOU!!!! *tight squeezy hugs*

I sooo understand about wearing baggy clothing to hide skinnyness and not being able to put any real weight on. It's embarrasing.

And girl, unless he tells you directly how do you KNOW that you're not his type?!

I don't even what to type all of what happened last night... Chad was decent at first then we acted like old times (getting a long just fine).. There was a reason for it.. the Cop was HORRIBLE & kept going at me every time I passed by... then he started yelling & yelling & making me feel like shat for things I had NO control over... He put me into an Anxiety attack, the not to pleasent kind... I was shaking, stuttering, holding my fingers & worst of all crying.. I have NO control when this happens... all I wanted to do was run away & hide. Chad was giving me all my things back.. we split spices & things 50/50... I'm getting my shelving back & ALL my things out of his storage unit.


BOY DO I KNOW HE IS HOT hehehe I have a crush on him :P Have for nearly 7 months now lol Thats why when he said his pants were falling off, I pulled harder I know I know, I'm bad

The whole world knows I like him & I know it'll more then likely never happen, & YES I'll never let him know how I feel :P I already know I'm not his type

Heres a few photos for you to gaa gaa over lol

-The group shot is from a couple weekends ago.. Notice how tall he is & how thin he looks.. Well that photo makes him look FAT.. hes like 6' & weighs 120lb.. hes a sheet of paper, he wears baggy clothing to make him look bigger, as he HATES being so thin (its not his fault).

-the one where you kinda see his face... thats when I had his foot & pulled him off his seat & under the table LOL I had to add this as it was too funny not too

[crow_noir]

*doin' a happy dance*

Parrrr tayyy!

I get the benefits on July 2ed! I'm so excited! I even get dental

[king2005]

That's horrible the cop was being all mean to you. Wish i could have been there to slap him for you (and have been able to get away with it. )

I guess the silver lining is that Chad was being the tiniest bit civil. ( Maybe he was getting smug satisfaction from the meanie cop. Blah. )

*comfort hugs*

I wish i could somehow get you the medicine you need. (Unfortunately i don't have connections in the pharmaceutical world like i do in the dog rescue world... not that those really get me far either.)

Ooooooooh! Joe pics! THANK YOU!!!! *tight squeezy hugs*

I sooo understand about wearing baggy clothing to hide skinnyness and not being able to put any real weight on. It's embarrasing.

And girl, unless he tells you directly how do you KNOW that you're not his type?!

It was either the cop yelling or the fact that I said I have pictures that go WAY back to prove that what I'm saying is in fact mine. + I told the cop (infront of Chad) that I will be bringing this to court, because all I want are my things & my things only... I know I didn't say that earlier as I forgot I said it... Anxiety makes me forget & I get memories back randomly & THEN things make sence :P

I'm sooo excited about getting my meds!! I want to have a more normal life for once!


Thats what Joe said. Hes been to Dr. after Dr. & been on all those bulking up diets & he puts on nothing. He said hes lucky if he can put on 5lbs & its even harder to keep it on... Now I do know he is CRAZY hyper & active... All he wants to do is walk when we hang out. I love the walks, as he knows downtown Toronto fairly well, so he shows me the sights (all by foot).. we are planning a day or 2 trip to go to the island (don't remember the name, but its part of Toronto) & we're gonna walk the whole thing! We're not sure if we're gonna bring the rest of the gang, as they usually walk WAY behind us, cause they are lazy lazy walkers.. I'm short & not a fast walker & I can keep up with Joe with no issues... the other guys are a lot taller then I am & ya... Joe & I could easly loose them just by walking! LOL I saw how thin he is when he removed 1 of the 2 shirts he was waring (teehee I know I'm so bad) & damn.. looks like he hasn't eatten in years, you can see all his bones He hates when we go to Gio's & the grandmother kidnaps Joe.. she makes him eat until he nearly pukes HAHAHAHA... She thinks hes aniraxic (sp )... we all laugh at him However Dan's mother does the same to me.. she thinks I don't eat enough.. & I'm over weight too

I know I'm not his type, cause ummmmm... I cannot say how I know on PT forums, but I do know.. + I've had a lot of talks with Joe about Anxiety & abuse, as we both went through that with our longterm partners, & we talked about relationships & what we're looking for... Not sure how on earth we got into that convo, but we talk a lot when we're driving a fair distance... This Sat should be interesting.. I'm driving him to Hamilton so he can spend his vacation with family & old friends.. I don't have a sterio in my car, so all we can do is talk for the 45min trip...

I know we get a long GREAT(really really great)... Sun was the first time that he well... touched me (NOT THAT WAY!!! ) hehe ya he grabbed my face & messed my hair.. then the whole group was grabbing my face, as it was attack Jess for some random reason LOL...

A few people in our group have made comments on how well Joe & I get along & that we are both single ... Karen & Ron (our big Brother type people) have also said the samething, to me anyways. It drives me nuts lol If I had to choose, friend or nothing.. its 100% friend! Love hanging out with him, &/or just relaxing in his room watching tv (he rents the room, so his room is his home, so his bed is the couch lol)...

see what you've done, you've tuned my brain back to the Joe station.. I'll never shut up now