What a sweet boy. I lost my dog to a car too, but I didn't see it. i did hear it, though, and it does linger. All I can suggest is that you "reframe" the incident and give it a better ending. Imagination is a powerful tool for healing.


Sit in a chair, relax for a few minutes. Close your eyes, take a few deep breaths, releasing the air slowly and feel any tension leving your body with it. Focus on happy memories of Toby for a few minutes. Now imagine that day, and replay everything up to the moment you saw the car coming, and then imagine that Toby miraculously escaped being hit, and instead, after the car passed, picture him standing on the other side, wagging his tail and looking at you. The look in his eyes tells you he is alright. Imagine a glowing light begins to surround him, and feel in your heart that he is safe & whole, which he is. Even talk to him out loud, and tell him how happy you are to know he still looks in on you, and he's in a safe place.
As you watch, he slowly fades, or rises, or whatever fits your idea about crossing over, and listen for his happy bark as you lovingly release him on his journey. Take as long as you need to, and embrace the image of him safe & whole, before opening your eyes.

I truly hope this helps, these kind of meditations helped me heal from the sudden loss of my Rosie when she was hit. The pain never goes away, but it does lessen.

Toby sure has a cute face, such soulful eyes.