My Black Labby, Emerson

[Pam]

Anna I am so glad there is a place like Pet Talk also so that you had somewhere to come to pour out your heart. Your post was wrenching and brought back all of those raw feelings that we, who have lost a dog, have felt. I hope you are sleeping finally but it is probably a fitful sleep.

I hope the autopsy will give you the answers. I have only had one dog pass away without knowing the cause. She was dead on my sofa one day after work and I had left a healthy dog in the morning. The vet assumed it was a heart attack but it is more likely that it was bloat. What grieves me to this day is that she, like Emerson, died alone. I am glad you are going ahead with the autopsy. I told the vet I didn't want one but I have wished a zillion times that I had one. I think there is a lot of guilt when the cause is not clear (a lot of 'what could I have done to prevent this?' sort of thinking goes on).

Reading about Malone's reaction is making the tears flow. They were buddies and now he will need to go on alone. Maybe they communicated on some level Anna. Maybe Malone knows that Emm was not feeling well and has already begun mourning. I wish I could give these (((hugs))) to you in person, but please know that we are all here for you in whatever way we can be. Please do post those pictures. I know looking at them will bring the tears but it would be a wonderful memorial to your Emm and the special boy he was.

[Pawsitive Thinking]

Anna, I read your entire post and it didn't take long for the tears to start flowing.

There is nothing we can say that will ease your pain but I do hope you get some comfort from knowing that we are all thinking of you. Like others have said, I hope the autopsy can give you an answer.

Take care you. Big hugs to Malone

[ChrisH]

Anna {{{{hugs}}}}
can't write anything, vision is blurred with tears.

[anna_66]

Oh Anna, so many of us here can relate with all the hardships your going through now and I'm sure that our hearts are breaking right along with yours.

Even thought your not around much any more I'm so glad that you come here to share your feelings and ramblings with us. When Angus died I just felt I couldn't talk about him but now I wish I had, it might have made me feel better and I hope it's made you feel a little more at ease, at least for a little bit.

I'm glad to hear the vet is doing an autopsy and will try and get to the bottom of what the problem was.

Lots of (((HUGS)))
Anna

[Vela]

I have been thinking of you all since yesterday morning. I wish there was something could say to make it stop hurting. Your post had me in tears again, and I know how much your hert hurts. Reading about Malone made me feel so sad. I know he misses his buddy too. I hope in the pictures and the memories you can find some happiness at some of the good times. Maybe not right now, but someday. Thinking of you gusy today and hoping you find a little comfort in knowing he's still there watching over you. He'll be waiting for you.

[Logan]

I have had you on my mind, Anna, nonstop, since I read your original post yesterday. My heart is just heavy and I don't know what to say to you that will make you feel better. If I had the right words, I'd be saying them to myself, over and over, and to all the others who have suffered such great loss in their lives.

You know, we are your real world. We're real. We hurt and agonize with you as if it were our own family member that departed. This is a wonderful place, with wonderful, real friends, who share one precious gift in common, our love for our animals.

I realized, this morning, that tomorrow is the first anniversary of losing Zipper. Like Emerson, he was with us for too short of a time. I'm not sure there is ever long enough, to tell you the truth, but it is a different kind of grief when you let them go after they have lived full, healthy lives. That has at least been my experience. No less painful, just a bit easier to swallow. You didn't get that with Emerson and we didn't get that with Zipper or Lilly.


I'm not a good one to talk with, probably, unless you need to have a good crying session. That, I can do, very easily.

Please know that I am thinking of you and Mark and your precious babies and you will be in my prayers.

Logan

[k9krazee]

Anna, I read this last night but could not bring myself to reply I still am at a loss for words but I wanted to let you know that you, Mark and Malone are in my thoughts. (((((hugs)))))) Thanks for posting the link to the thread of Em's introduction to PT, I wasn't here at the time and that whole thread brought a smile to my face.

Rest Easy Mr. Emerson, you will never be forgotten.