The vet just called, Cosmo has tumors. One is on his spleen and the other is on the route of the mesatary (his intestines). They could do exploratory surgery and remove the one on his spleen (and remove his spleen if need be), but the one on his intestines may not be operatable. The vet said he is in guarded to poor condition.

I have decided to put him to sleep this afternoon.

I don't think it's right to put him through the surgery. He is almost 12 years old, has kidney disease and is just not doing well.

I can't believe I've had to put all two of my cats to sleep in 2 months. I can't believe this is happening. I can't stop crying. I don't want to go home to a cat empty house. I always promised Cosmo I would buy him a home with a huge back yard. I never got that chance.

I am happy in a small way because this Sunday I was able to take him outside and he walked around & laid in the sun.

I hope Maxie will be at the rainbow bridge, waiting for him. Maxie can show him around and introduce him to all the other animals.

My heart is numb.