I feel your pain. My Mandy has been gone 10 1/2 months and it still hurts. I miss her terribly. Some days are better then others. I believe that where our babies are, there is no 'time' meaning they aren't worried how long the wait is until we see them again. They just know one day, we will be together.
I hope soon you will find some peace with Lillys being gone. {hugs}