Thank you everyone for your kind replies, with me anyhow it hasn't fully sunk in yet...not sure about anyone else though. I am really glad though that I got to give him a good belly rub and a butt scratch the last time I saw him about a month ago, I think he knew his time was close as he spent a lot more time cuddling with me than he usually did (which is saying something because he was a major cuddle dog to begin with)

Sigh its hard for me, I can't immagine what my MIL is going through Even though we have our differences it still hurts to see any member of my family sad. One day at a time I guess.