Thankyou all for your kind words, it actually helped a lot to get that out there, off of my chest and I feel a little bit lighter for it today. In answer to your question the builders start work on our kitchen on monday, and we will be bringing it up. Not sure what will come of that but.. eh. I've been an animal owner my entire life and I work with horses (rehab and rehome rescue cases) and i've witnessed some pretty awful and tragic things. But nothing has ever been this sudden, its really effected me and my whole family. We're terrified to let Oz out of the house now although he's got 7 years behind him and is the most streetwise cat I know. Oddly though, he doesnt seem to keen on going out anymore. I suppose they mourn just as we do.

Thankyou again for your words, this has really helped.