well............ good I dinīt see much of the discussion, but thanks to those who understand.........

this would be my second, if it ever happens............ so I thik I know what Iīm doing and what to expect......... itīs not "just for fun"

and my hubby knew from the start so I was in no way tricking him.........

he just thinks heīs not quite ready for a second one right now.......if he waits until he thinks heīs ready they itīll never happen.......

I stopped the BC because it was time for changing the "item" for a new one and since I have to wait for 3-4 months so they replace it, I somewhat seized the opportunity for the posibility of a second child.........

itīs not like I have to get preg right this second maybe around june/july or so...... if he feels better waiting then he can contribute on the BC......

there are other factors involving me wanting a child now, but they donīt seem to affect him, I mean heīs a man ha can hava a kid even when hes 70 but I canīt and Iīm not getting any younger........... I want to have the physical condition to donīt sleep, be always on the lookut, play and everything a child involves.......I donīt want them to be too apart from each other agewise........

anyway thanks for your support and hopefully PT vibes work on my hubby fast so he "thinks" hes ready