Alex is gone, and my heart is breaking

**AbbyMom** · 03-12-2007, 09:19 PM

Thank you for giving him love in his last days. Thank you for doing the right thing for him when it was time.

RIP Alex. Play hard at the bridge.

**jennielynn1970** · 03-12-2007, 09:37 PM

Today was just so hard. I came home from work as soon as I could. I wrapped Alex up and sat outside with him because it was so sunny and warm. We rocked on the porch swing, and he just closed his eyes and relaxed. He seemed so at peace and happy like that. I held him there for 2hrs. I came inside once it got cool and we rested on the sofa together. Even driving to the vet was peaceful.

Once we got there it was a little more tense. I think he could smell that we were someplace that wasn't a good thing. I was sitting there crying off and on. Our appt. was for 7pm, but the vet was running late, and we didn't get in to a room until almost 8pm. He was having small seizures (I thought he had been but wasn't certain), and he got really upset when the vet injected the first medicine. I was so upset seeing him upset. I was kneeling down, blowing in his face, and telling him I loved him. He just looked so scared. I felt like I was betraying him. Letting go of him and he was alone. My heart is breaking. I hope he forgives me for letting him go and giving up. I just couldn't handle seeing him in pain and suffering. If I could have held him forever, until he was ready to go, I would have.

I'm so sorry Alex. I love you. I hope you are feeling better now, and are playing with the other kitties from the shelter who crossed before you. I miss you terribly. I will be with you again my brave boy. I love you sweetie. Play hard at the bridge honey till I see you again.

**kimlovescats** · 03-12-2007, 09:44 PM

LES ... I'm so, so, sorry!!!

**Medusa** · 03-13-2007, 08:27 AM

I thought it was heartwrenching to read your earlier post but this one is even more difficult to read. I can only imagine how you must have felt during this entire ordeal. But you did NOT give up. You stayed the course. It was absolutely the best thing for Alex. That cat was miserable. Yes, he had his peaceful moments, thanx to you but you couldn't be w/him 24/7. I know you would've liked to have been but you couldn't. Now he can see and hear and play and he's seizure free, pain free and loving his life as one of God's creatures should and was meant to. You not only didn't give up. You gave him a good and better life, this side of the veil and beyond. The candles are still burning for you both.

**momtomany** · 03-13-2007, 09:18 AM

Jen
Alex was blessed to be loved by you. As sad as your heart is, please know that you did the right thing and Alex is happy and playing with all our babies there at Rainbow Bridge. You will be reunited with one day.

**smokey the elder** · 03-13-2007, 10:33 AM

Poor Alex. He'll be at the Rainbow Bridge, knowing he was much loved.

**Kirsten** · 03-13-2007, 02:21 PM

This is heartbreaking. I know you did the right thing, but it's still heartbreaking.

Alex has experienced some love in the end, and this is what he carries with him on his trip to the Bridge...

R.I.P. Alex

Kirsten

**dukedogsmom** · 03-12-2007, 09:46 PM

LES here at work. I'm so very sorry. I know the feeling of guilt, too. It must be a normal emotion that we suffer. It is so very hard even though you know you're doing the right thing. Alex knew you loved him so much. That two hours in the sun was such a gift to him. And now, he can see all the other animals and the beautiful green grass at the RB. We all will meet up again, you know?

**Cinder & Smoke** · 03-12-2007, 09:54 PM

BLESS you, Jen ~

For having the strength and courage to show Alex the true Love you had for him.

He'll always remember you were there with him as he Crossed over the Bridge.

{{{Hugs}}}

/s/

Phred

**Queen of Poop** · 03-12-2007, 10:03 PM

Thank you for releasing Alex to the Bridge. No more pain, no more feeling lost. Thank you for showing him the LOVE that he so richly deserved. If he had to leave at least he knew he was LOVED. Hugs for you, I know how hard it is.

**Catty1** · 03-12-2007, 10:31 PM

LES

Jenn...{{{{hugs}}}}

I am sorry he got upset...that makes it feel so much worse...but you know he was starting to hurt, and now no more pain. Peace for Alex.

I wish I could reach through the computer and hug you!

**krazyaboutkatz** · 03-13-2007, 12:39 AM

Jenn,I'm sorry to hear about Alex's passing.

I know it was a very hard thing to do but you did the right thing. You gave him love and a nice home before his journey to the bridge and now he's running and playing and free from pain. RIP sweet Alex.

Please take care Jenn. (((HUGS)))