oh Robin, please don't blame yourself. Like catty said, if he's suffering from depression & won't get any help, there isn't much else you can do, except take care of yourself & be there if & when he comes back. You keep on praying and we'll be here praying with you. Prayer does change things. And you can keep right on loving him, because love is truly the essence of what being an expression of God is all about. Don't give up before the miracle. (((hugs))) and (((more hugs))).