I Just Put My Baby to Sleep

[fritz03]

Sorry to hear about Maxie's passing.From the sounds of it,Maxie was a real pal for,I am sure you will miss him a lot,so will Fenway and Cosmo.It is not easy losing a close friend like Maxie,it was the same for us when Ruffles was put to sleep,it will be 5 years on April 3 since he has been gone and miss him every day.it will hard for awhile,but the pain will ease somewhat.Think of the good times you had with him ,it should help.Barry and Fritz.

[Jadapit]

I'm so very sorry for you loss! Your post had me in *tears* You did the best thing for your sweet Maxie. You will be in my thoughts. {{{Hugs}}}

[Felicia's Mom]

I too am sorry for your loss. May Maxie R.I.P. until you meet again.

[catmandu]

Moxie has gotten his wings on Hawaii Island and is now an offical member of The Pet Angel Army.
Hes sad knowing that you are going to miss him, but he wants you to know thats hes healthy now and that you did what hhad to be done and he knows that you did that out of love.
He says to listen for him that he will visit and from where ever he is in the world he will send signals thats hes all right.
and that you will be together in a better place with places to see and enjoy each others company once more.
One Fine Day.

[kb2yjx]

I am so very sorry to read about your best friend, Maxie. Please do not beat yourself up about his cardiac condition!! He sounded like he had been fine, without any symptoms. But he threw a clot, and when you found him, he was in pain. You did all you could to help Maxie, but it was out of love that you let him go, even though it was devastating to you. Maxie will never forget all the love you gave him. he will always be with you!! Sleep softly, dear Maxie...
and ((((((((hugs)))))))) to Mom...

[dukedogsmom]

I'm so very sorry. It's a very hard thing to have to live through. I had to make the same choice with my dog three months ago. I can tell you that it's not easy. I, too, know my heart will never be the same. Even though you know it was the right thing to do, it still hurts. Don't be surprised if you feel guilt, also. I still feel it. It will just take a lot of time for the pain to not be so bad. Maxie is well loved and waiting for you at the RB, as are all our dearly loved ones.

[Catty1]

I read the earlier post you posted about Maxie - what a beautiful boy!

And you said then that the vet wasn't worried about meds, and you had toys so that Maxie could shed a few pounds - you WERE doing stuff for him!

Sweetie, even if the vet recommended medication, and you had done it - it might not have lengthened his life. This is a horrible condition!

The best thing was that you loved him!!! Pills can never replace that.

{{{{HUGS}}}}

[Vermontcat]

I'm so sorry to hear that your sweet Maxie went so suddenly and unexpectedly to the RB.
Sending hugs your way.

[krazyaboutkatz]

I'm so sorry to hear about Maxie's passing. RIP sweet Maxie. Please take care. (((HUGS)))

[Medusa]

I could really feel your sadness and loss while reading your post. We here at PT understand completely. You did the last kind thing you could do for Maxie. It brought pain to your heart but it brought relief to him. He'll never leave your heart but the pain will lessen w/time. A candle burns for you both. RIP, dear Maxie. You will be reunited one day and will snuggle under the covers together once again.

Blessings,
Mary

[elizabethann]

Thank you again for everybody's kind words. They mean allot to me. I am lucky to have friends like you, who understand what I am going through.

It's been a hard day. Last night was even worse. It was the first night without my Maxie. There was nobody there to sleep with me under the covers and in my arms. I took my digital camera out and looked at pictures and videos I have of Maxie and I cried myself to sleep. Luckily, Fenway was there to lick my tears away.

The thing is, I am responsible for Maxie's death. In July of 2005, he was diagnosed with Cardiomyopathy. I put him on a diet and in July of 2006, the vet said he was doing good & he had lost some weight. But then Cosmo got kidney disease & lost a ton of weight and wouldn't eat. So I bought Fancy Feast & fed him that. Cosmo would want to eat every 2-3 hours. So to fatten him up, I fed him that. And I fed Maxie too. It's like I put his condition on the back burner. It's like I forgot all about him. So I do feel responsible and I know I am partly responsible. For that, I will never forgive myself.

Tonight is hard too. Fenway is at my sisters and it's just me & Cosmo (like it was 6 years ago). I'm leaving for Florida tomorrow (which I have no desire to go to right now). It's so quiet in the apartment. It will be hard to go to bed again tonight. And I feel bad leaving Cosmo & Fenway.

I'm sorry if I sound like a big baby. But I just can't get over this. I'm even thinking of going to a pet shrink to help me through this.

In the meantime, is there any place on the web where I can create a video memorial for Maxie? I've seen some on this website that people have created in memory of their pets. Is this some kind of software you have to purchase? If anybody can let me know, I'd appreciate it. I tried to create a page on Catster for him, but for some reason, it's not letting me log in.

Thanks again for your kind words. They really mean alot. I'm glad websites like this exist.

This is Maxie sleeping in my bed:


This is Maxie and his buddah belly (which I will miss):


This is Maxie smiling:

[dukedogsmom]

What a sweet angel in that first pic. Where will you be in Florida? If you'd ask in cat general, someone there might make a video for you. I would but I'm not that talented. Trust me, I know how hard it is and you're not being a baby about it. It's been three months for me now and there's days where it's felt like I lost him just yesterday. Lots of time for us to heal is what it's going to take. That and the love from your other cats can help to fill the void at times. Good luck and know that we're here for you. Pms from some of your buddies here can help a lot, too.

[Daisy and Delilah]

I sent you a PM this morning but your box was full. I'm not sure if you saw my thread about it in General. I'm sorry that your trip to Florida is tomorrow. I know you don't want to go. Try to enjoy it a little if you can. I hope getting away makes you feel a bit better.

Maxie was such a beautiful boy. Thanks for posting pictures of him. Take care.

Terry

[jazzcat]

I'm so sorry about Maxie. Try not to blame yourself.

Rest in Peace Sweet Maxie.

[Marigold2]

I am so so so sorry to hear about your lose. How you loved Maxie and how he loved you. We lost our Cassiegirl five years ago and the pain you are feeling is so familiar to me. I cried everyday for a month I missed her so. For us adopting a kitten, Jake a Poo helped us heal. His silly antics and innocence was what stopped my tears along with my daughters.
Good luck to you. I realized after a bit that the greatest gift we can give to our loved furry children is exactly what most of us do, give them the best life possible and to not let them suffer. You did that. You were a great mom and Maxie knew that.