I feel for you i lost my Grandpa Oct 31 2003,He was my best friend and more of a father to me then my own was,He was such a stubborn man,he would not see a doctor and his health deteriated,He died alone i hate myself for not being there,But no body told me a thing i went months without talking to my family,I hated myself i still do for not being there with him,But 2 days before he passed he made a remark"Dont cry just let me go"I found him 2 days later and that will live with me for the rest of my life,Gina if you need to talk just drop me a line.It is hard and it is something we will never get over i feel you pain

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