Oh honey- I will pm you- but I will tell you- I AM PROUD OF YOU! I am sorry you went through that but this is HIS PROBLEM not yours.. As someone that went through this- I can also tell you, THERE IS LIFE and a MUCH BETTER ONE after all this.. Who YOU ARE is NOT defined by what someone else does or thinks- you are in my thoughts and prayers. Accept where you are now- as the launching board for a new life.