Sorry I've been loopy for so many years...UPDATE: still no benifits

[king2005]

Have you seen a doc to make sure you get the right meds?

HUGS! February is a SHORT month.

I can't cause I can get denyed for my benifits or have to pay more/month (which I cannot afford)...

I'm going to go to a clinic & just talk, to a Dr. If they will sneek me samples then I'll go that route, if they are gonna write it down, then I'll have to walk out.

I know a clinic in Ottawa that'll help me & we're going down not this weekend, but next, so I'll go to it & will get a much as I can to cover me until my benifts start in March.

I've been going nuts since last night... Ron kicked his g/f out & was ranting in the car (raising his voice, but not yelling)... that set me off & today I swear I have ants in my pants. I'm completely aggetaded... My friend thinks it cause I'm nervous about the benifits & excited all at the same time... Honestly I don't care, its really getting hard to hide... I work hard to hide my anxiety, but its getting really hard to do lately.

[king2005]

Still no benifits
I think I was denyed. I knew that was coming.


I have a couple other plans I'm going to try... I'm going to go to a Dr. get a note saying it would be best for me to work from home to lower all stress.
or
Just go on dissability & get meds that way. I can still work then, but ya...

I'm having a bad day. Its been bothering me for a while & its hitting me semi hard right now... I'm fidigity, watery eyes, heavy chest & my arm muscles kill. All I want to do is go home. I've hardly done anywork, but I wont get paid if I leave & I need the $, so I'm stuck

[kimlovescats]

I'm so sorry, sweetheart! I know all about panic / anxiety / depression ... it is NOT fun! Please try to hang in there, there just has to be some way for you to get some help with medication.

Hugs,
Kim

[king2005]

All I want to do is go home. Thats all I can think about. I don't know why its so bad, its so stupid.

[kimlovescats]

All I want to do is go home. Thats all I can think about. I don't know why its so bad, its so stupid.

It can be very debilitating!

Hugs,
Kim

[king2005]

this whole thing makes me mad. the stupid dr. could have done something about this many many yrs ago, when I would complaing about bad chest pains.. I wa always brushed off & here I am 100 times sicker then ever & learning all my other feelings are also from Anxiety... stupid uselss dr.s