I feel like I've been crying non-stop the past two days. I get down and extremely depressed when I'm by myself doing nothing... it leaves room for thinking, and thinking usually causes trouble in my head. So what did I do? Turned on music... and surprisingly, it didn't help, just made me feel even more lousy and I started bawling even harder...

Sigh, I want all the pain to be erased. I hate crying.. I feel so weak.