My heart is hurting for you and Shivers. He was such a sweet dog. I hope one day you will be able to find room in your heart for another dog. It's very hard, as I'm learning. I just adopted one after losing my dog of 13 years. I find it's helping me to heal a little. It's a lengthy process and not without pain but it feels good to laugh again, too. I hope you can find some peace with all this. I know it's more difficult because of the way Shivers died. All of our dogs that have passed on will look after Shivers until you can meet again.