Yeah I know what you mean. I just broke my rib this summer from a horse that would not listen no matter what. And I've fallen off horses about 2 or 3 times even before that, and many times I just felt like I should quit trying to ride horses and that I'm a failure to horses. But I try to put that thought aside because my dream is to own my own horse and if I didn't ride that horse then it would be sad. You gotta fall and get back up again!