It was so hard coming home today. When I opened the door, for just a few seconds, I looked for Duke to greet me. My heart sank when I remembered he wasn't there. Mom made tuna salad tonight and I said I wished we could have given Duke a boiled egg. He dearly loved those. She said she didn't boil any extra on purpose because she didn't want to see it laying around. I'll try to find a video of him eating one. My brother said he's never seen a dog eat something so delicately before.

My Dearest, Most Loved Duke,
I miss you so much right now. I want you back so I can tell you how much I love you and hug you tightly once more. Last night I begged you to come visit me so I hope you can. You will forever be a part of my heart and soul. You were my furry soul mate. I am so fortunate to have found you. You turned me into a dog person. I was a cat person for you. You changed me forever. Last night I was petting you, trying to memorize everything so I could have it with me always. As I was hugging you so close today at the vet, I hope you had no doubts about how much I love you. I feel blessed that I could give you peace in your time of need. Though my heart is breaking, it's no longer hurting because of your illness. There's a peace there that tells me this was the right decision. I'll be waiting unpatiently until we can be reunited. I love you so much, I would have gladly died for you to live but then you'd feel my pain. It was always going to be too soon for you to go. I miis you so, my sweet baby dog.
This lyrics from Snow Patrol describe how I felt last night and for a while, I did forget the world. It was just you and me.
If I just lay, if I just lay here,
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I'm glad your grandmaw remembered the canned chicken. When I didn't think you'd eat it, you did. I'm so happy we were able to give you that last good taste. I think it even perked you up a little. I'm happy you were able to enjoy at least half the ride to the vet sitting up, enjoying smelling the fresh air and looking out the windows. I also thank you so much for your last gift to me. These pictured of you looking happy, with your ears up and no sadness in your eyes. I will be eternally greatful for that last gift from you. I miss you so much, my heart just aches.
Pictures in next post.