She is absolutely gorgeous. I'm so sorry. I know all too well the pain. It's been 6 months since my Sherry's been gone and I hurt just the same. I, too, had to put her to rest. I couldn't stand seeing her go, but I couldn't stand seeing her suffer. It's like your heart playing tug-o-war, but you know what you have to do. I don't have any more dogs now. I think Sherry hit me the hardest because I was the caregiver for her. She was handicapped during the last couple of years of her life and I was basically her legs. I would pick her up when she wanted to get up. For a while, once she was up, she could walk, but then she started to fall alot. After that, I would support her back end with a sling. I took her to work with me so she was never alone. Got her acupuncture once a week, did Reiki, massage, etc.. I was needed 95% of the day by her. Once she was gone, I had nothing to do. I couldn't believe the empty time. I finally lost her to liver cancer. She was a Shepherd/Collie. I didn't get any more dogs, but I dove more into my rescues and adoptions and now I basically foster and babysit. Not ready for permanency yet. But at least I'm needed at times. I'll keep you and Lady in my prayers. She's probably playing frisbee with my Sherry. They can both run again.