I was in acute grief after my Myrtille died, and somehow I thought to call Hospice, knowing they do grief counseling. There was a person there who was so compassionate and stayed on the phone with me for as long as I needed, as I wept and talked to her - and she said I could call back anytime. It might help you to call and ask if there is anyone there at your local Hospice who would be willing to talk to you about your losses.