Do any of you have prayer requests??

[Logan]

My prayers continue for everyone who has posted.

Willie, I do hope your little nephew is going to be ok.

Logan

[dukedogsmom]

I'm being ripped apart by what's happened to Brian. Pray for him more than me. It's so hard to be strong right now and I've got to for him.

[Logan]

Val, I don't know what is going on with Brian, but I assume you have been out there already. He will be in my prayers.

Logan

[NoahsMommy]

The power of PT Prayer is amazing...and I really need that right about now.

Long story short...I've been in a HUGE amount of severe pain lately and I'm having a hard time with my doctors. My Cedars doctors do not feel my pain is crohn's related (even though it all began at the same time, is in my abdoman and is effected by stress, eating, going to the potty, etc.) and thus don't feel the need to treat me.

My current pain doctor is becoming horrible. My meds aren't working and he made me wait 2 weeks for new ones. As a result I had to stay at Cedars for a week. When I finally got home and got the new meds (it was a trial period), I called for them to fill enough until my next appt on 11/10. I told the girl on the phone the dose that I was taking, the dose that was WORKING. I ended up in the ER again last night and found that the doctor LOWERED my dose from the initial trial period!!! I didn't look at the bottle because I had thought the doctor would have listened to me telling him what works!!!'

I went down to Cedars Pain Mgmt Center and my doc basically brushed me off. I'm trying to get into a Chronic Pain Managment Program at the Daniel Freeman Hospital where they'll take me off my meds and then start again, thus lowering my high tolerance and will help them work again, with fewer meds. I've been calling over there sinse Friday at 2:30 and the coordinator FINALLY called me while I was in my therapy session. I called him back not 5 minutes later (and again every 1/2 hour until 5:00p) and couldn't reach him.

I'm thinking things and acting in ways I don't normally act. This constant pain and the frustration have me not wanting to live any more. I've NEVER, EVER, EVER felt this way, but I'm just as a loss. I've done everything I'm supposed to do, and more and I'm not getting the help I need and deserve.

Last night the ER doc sent me home...I was still (and still am) in a ton of pain. He let me go home becuase Cedars told him it wasn't Crohn's related and its not life threatening. Meanwhile I'm in excrutating pain and want to off myself to make it stop, to get peace. I know that's not the answer, but I can only take so much.

Thankfully, I've found a really, really wonderful therapist and saw a psychiatrist today who prescribed some meds to help calm me down. I just hate that this is changing who I am.

I'm not getting support from my mother, in fact, its getting much worse and she's being mean and horrible. I have nowhere else to go, so if I bring anything up or disagree with her, she'll kick me out.

I really, really, really need prayers. I feel as though God is ignoring me. I've been praying so hard for the past 2 months and things just keep getting worse for me. I'm trying hard to keep my faith, but I feel ignored and not cared about. I know in my heart and head that's not the case, but I just don't get it.

Thanks for listening and for the prayers.

Hugs, Kelly

[Logan]

Maybe there is a reason for me being up at this late hour, Kelly.

I wish I had an easy answer for you, my friend. My heart aches, just knowing what you are dealing with, right now, and have been for so long.

Please know that you are loved and your life and YOU are valuable to us. I know you are in a bad place right now, but don't give up on your faith and don't give up on life. PLEASE!!!!

There has got to be an answer for you, and a resolution to your pain. Hang in there and if you need to talk, I think you know how to reach me. I hope you do.

Love,
Logan

[Alysser]

LOL, my last post was really useless because my parents got over it in like 15 minutes. Thank you guys!

Can you please spare another good thought for me? I got a bad grade on a math quiz and now I have a math test tommorow. If I pass it I'll be fine and at the same grade I was. Can you please spare a thought for me tonight or tommorow? I'm really nervous! Of course, I'll study and I am doing so right now, but just wish me luck. Thanks!

Willie, is there any update on your nephew yet?

[Rachel]

I've read the recent entries in this thread and please know that I will have you all in my prayers. Kelly, my heart goes out to you because I know how long you have been fighting for some resolution and how very discouraging it can be to have your situation minimized by the very people you rely on to help you. I pray that you will find a doctor who can zero in on what will help your situation. There has to be something that will help you, if not today, then tomorrow.