Deb, prayer is the only thing that I have relied on thus far. Without my Faith in God, I would have crumbled long ago. I pray constantly for intervention, that He will show me the way, what to do, what I CAN do, and that most of all, He will send a guardian angel to protect baby Jenna. Of course I pray that He protects my precious daughter as well! I lie in bed at night and run terrible scenarios through my head of what might be happening and what COULD happen ... then I have to turn it over to God and ask for peace so that I can sleep.

I want so badly to rely on my Faith and to Trust fully in Him, but I prayed for years and years for my brother. He finally died in a pharmacy late one night while trying to get more pills. He fell out in the floor with a seizure, fractured his skull, and was brain dead. Finally after days of life support with no brain activity, my parents had to make the difficult decision to turn the machines off. He was my "big brother" .... he was physically handicapped since birth and although I was 8 years younger than him, I always felt very protective of him. We all prayed earnestly for him for years and years on end, and ultimately he died a horrible death. I still in my heart have not forsaken my Lord and I trust that He had His hand in what happened with my brother. It is taking every ounce of Faith I have, to continue to Trust and Believe that my girls are in His hands as well, but I do BELIEVE and TRUST in My LORD GOD!

Kim