Liz, it has all been said. I've been where you are now. For myself, I found that the only way I could heal was to save a life. My daughter and I frequented the area shelters til we found Killian. For me, only then did the healing start to take place. There were others out there who needed me and their time was running out. Buddy will live on in your heart forever. I hope that you can start to heal soon. As always, my prayers are with you.