I am so sorry, I somehow hoped to never see this here, even though it's not realistic to think that way. I know this hurts to lose someone who has been with you so long and who you have such a strong bond with, my best thoughts and wishes to you, I know you are heartbroken. Thankfully you have the love of your other companions to offer you some comfort but I know that's not even enough right now. I'm really very sorry.