They are so sweet and so lucky to have you! Remember, it is the journey, NOT the destination. Some of them you are helping along on their journey to cross the RB. They knew love, tenderness, comfort, food and warmth, and they didn't die alone on a cement floor in a closet. That is just as important! And others, you are helping them on their journey to becoming wonderful companions! I know it is devastating to lose one, you are investing so much of yourself into these little cuties. We would wonder about both of you if you didn't feel anything! We are all sending positive thoughts that the group of you get through this together!