Tracy, I don't think that you failed at all. You did everything you could and now you made the best decision for the kittens health. I know that they'll do well here and now you can concentrate on getting yourself, the 2 kittens, and your own cat Honey better. You also deserve a well needed break from all of this. I think you've done a fantastic job so far because without your help the none of the kittens would still be alive today. Please take care.(((HUGS)))