Do NOTsay you dont deserve prayers. We are friends here, and love each and every cat regardless of posts. We love you and hope only the best for your cats.
I am so sorry for the loss of your kitties as well as the shelter kitties. It is very hard to lose any companion, ESP. your own.
I DO hope that you continue your shelter work and help to save (or help cross over) as many kitties as possible. Sometimes your kindness is needed in very heartbreaking situations. But the cats that you can not help, would want you to hold them before and while they go to the bridge.
Prayers on the way for your healing, the cats at the shelter, and poor Lucky. You will know when it is time. *HUGS* Katie and kitties

GET BETTER LUCKY! *fingers crossed*