HUg I understand very well the trying tostay a wake . Please it doesn't help. I know a freind of mine in high scjhool (when we were in HS I was a frosh they were JR.) commited suicide he was my boyfreind at the times math partner. Alan my BF had a horrible time dealing with it. We tried to stay awake all it did was make us almost to sick to attend the funeral.
Just try to remember the good times and the great things they did. Thats the best way to handle it. Talk about them good memories make it easier.