Kay, I have been in your shoes when it comes to a lost dog. I lost my heart dog Kato five years ago this January. He was a shar/pei pit bull mix. I couldn’t eat, sleep, I snapped at people a lot, it was only because I was beside myself with worry and grief. I would lay awake at night listening for him to scratch at the door. I had dreams I found him I would wake up so happy only to realize I had been dreaming. So, I honestly do know what you are going through. I would not wish the feelings you are having on anyone. It breaks my heart, it truly does. We all love you and Ki here on PT Kay. Don’t forget that ok? I'm still praying hard for you and your precious girl. (((HUGS)))