Thank you all for your help & support it means a lot to me.

I wish I could say things are looking better for me but unless you want me to lie I am unable to do that.

I am sorry to vent but my mind is boggled right now I need to get this out of my system. Please skip over this is you are sick of hearing my problems.

In the last week I've dished out approx $700 in: vet bills for Nanook & my ferret Spurr, car troubles, house problems. Now I have to come up with $300-$500 for adrenal surgery for my ferret somehow.
Nanook is not doing well either, I know there will more vet bills in the near future for him.

A good friend of my family passed away last night.
My uncle Harry is in the hospital, they don't expect him to make it.
My grandmother is in the hospital, advanced alzheimers, she has only days left to live.
Joe's friend who is also his boss has to have an operation to correct a nerve that is close to his heart. He has stroke like symptoms now, if he even makes it to the surgery there is only a slight chance he will make it through the surgery.

There's tons of little things wrong with my life right now too. My house has 2 soft spots in my floor, one happens to be under my hot water heater, 2 burners on my stove are not working, one of my living room windows is leaking, need I go on? I can if you want me to. It seems as if it is never ending.

My work is having some troubles, the ecomony is terrible is pretty much what it boils down to. Therefore I am forced to find a new job. I know I will have to take a pay cut no matter what job I get. This is the worst problem I have right now I think.

I just want a break is all. I can't keep on like this. I am starting to get scared, not only for the welfare of my animals & me myself (bills, food, etc..) I am also getting scared emotionally. I can not take this anymore. I haven't felt right in quite a while now. I don't know how I'm going to do this, I don't know what is going to happen.
Please do not say god doesn't give you more than you can handle, or that things will get better, my life & my luck has been like this for about 3 years now, seriously. Ever since I ended a bad abusive relationship. I have been trying to better my life ever since. Sure I have become a better person since then but my life has in turn become a LOT worse.

Forgive me if you don't hear from me in a while. My mind is just so boggled I don't know what I am going to do or what is going to happen. Right now as it stands today I can't take it anymore, I don't feel like doing anything.
Thanks once again.
Sue