I completely understand. Shortly after my father passed (7 years ago), I was really depressed and I talked to him several times a week. I asked him one time why he had to leave me. He said that he didn't just leave me, he also left my mother and my brother. I then told him that since he will never come back if he could send Sterling (a cat of ours) home. (Sterling got out one night and he didn't return. After about 2 months we gave up hope that he would return.) Well 2 weeks later I hear my mom and my brother screaming upstairs. They were stomping on the floor. So I ran upstairs to figure out what was going on. My mom grabbed me and just started crying. I then looked at the floor by the front door and there sat Sterling. I cried so hard. I told her that Dad sent him home. She said she knew that. I told her about my conversation with him, when I asked him to send Sterling home. I was amazed. I stood there for sveral minutes thanking my Dad and God for sending him home.