{{{{{{{{{{{{{{SLICK}}}}}}}}}}}}} Yup it hits us all at different stages in the process and you're right on track on your path. Go ahead and cry, girl. And if/when the anger hits a punching bag is good or go somewhere where you can yell and scream - driving in the car alone was good for me. But don't try and drive and cry - been there, done that .... not a good thing

Just before I was diagnosed I had taken a women's self-defense course - one of those model-mugging things where you learn street-wise self-defense. Shortly thereafter I was diagnosed with invasive breast cancer and soon after my diagnosis I had a dream - in the dream I was beating the C**p out of my cancer - kicking and hitting and screaming and really giving my cancer everything I had learned in that course. That dream carried me through my cancer ordeal - through all the scans, surgeries, and doctors appointments, I just keep visualizing myself kicking the s**t out of my tumors.

I don't know if my visualizations worked or the treatments or a combination of both - it sure was cathartic for me to do all I could from MY end of the picture. I still hold the visual of that dream in my heart and use it from time to time when life gets difficult.

Be gentle with yourself. Let us carry you cuz that's what we're all here for.