slick ~ It will be okay. You just needed to get your emotions out. I also wondered when it would "hit". Not that you were in denial, 'cuz you weren't. But, the enormous reality of it takes time to sink in. Then, you put it into perspective. It's not bigger than you. You can handle it. It will not control you. You are a fighter. We will be here for you. You're not going through it alone. It sucks! You don't "deserve" it. No one does.

Okay, deep cleansing breath. Big bear hug. Better now?

Until the next time you need to cry. Go ahead. It will wash your fears away.