I have cancer....the road to recovery

[slick]

I want to take this moment to thank you all from the bottom of my heart. Your love and prayers are everything I need right now. So many of you have sent email, ecards, and I've received cards in the mail. I owe you all an email back and will try to get at that tonight. Right now, I'm not doing so well.

Last night was not a good night for me. All of a sudden, this "thing" hit me like a ton of bricks and I sobbed my heart out for hours. I really don't know where it came from....I was blindsided. I'm still not feeling as strong as before and I really need to give myself a slap on the rear and tell myself to smarten up.

I'm at home today waiting on some furniture delivery. I'm supposed to be laying low in preparation for the scan tomorrow but as I look around, there is so much to be done. My brother is coming here on Friday night and will stay overnight. I have a few things around here that I want him to fix on Saturday before he goes home to Calgary.

A potential housecleaner is coming over tonight for an interview. I spoke to her at length on the phone and I really feel in my heart that she will work out OK. By the way....her name is Laurie... She loves cats and is anxious to meet Max.

So there you have it. Again, please forgive me for not responding to all of you individually. When I settle down tonight, I'll get right to it.

xoxoxoxoxo

[Catty1]

Hey - how about changing the "everybody's Last choice" to "My First Choice"?

Feed yourself all the positive stuff you can!

HUGS

C

[gini]

Dear friend, I was wondering when this would come..........and as painful as it is for you, I am glad that it has arrived.

I cannot think of anything more normal than you having all of the possible emotions to deal with this.

Anger
Fear
Dread
Self pity
and on and on

Cry - go ahead and have a good long cry - or two - or three. No, you don't deserve to have this - and why DO YOU have cancer? There are no easy answers - so we rummage around in our heads and bang against the walls of our brain.

If you didn't come to this point, I think I would have been more worried.

For thousands of reasons, you are well loved here at Pet Talk - and individually as friends.

I am here for you - all of us are here for you - none of us will let you down.

I will try to call you this evening.

xxoo me

[momoffuzzyfaces]

There was a book out several years ago by a woman fighting cancer. I can't remember her name for the life of me but the book is called:
First you Cry.

That's been my experience when anyone I know has cancer. I know when dad was diagnosed, I expected him to keel over any second. So, you cry. Then you realize as long as there is life, there is hope. You know that, ok, I have a disease that can be very very bad but it can also be cured. Then you start fighting back. We are going to be right here fighting with you. I fully expect you to kick that cancer's butt so bad it will never even consider coming back.

So cry when you need to. You need to get that out.
Know we are here and we love you and prayer is the most powerful force in the universe. I know for a fact, heaven's prayer lines are glowing from the heat of all the calls they are receiving on your behalf.

Remember: we are all here for you.
TONS OF LUVIES

[Killearn Kitties]

Aww, that bit had to come at some point, I suppose. Don't you worry about replying to anything, just you take care of yourself and just take all the hugs heading your way!

Good luck for tomorrow.

[jenluckenbach]

Slick, I too was waiting for reality to sink in. SURE, your head is strong, you know you can and WILL fight this.......but your heart must sink at some point. Wondering WHY? HOW? that's OK. it is normal. And here is where we all get to help you some. We can be your strength whenever you feel too weak.

We love you Slick....have you figured that out yet?

[lbaker]

When you can't even see your own footsteps, it's because we are all there carrying you, dear person, dearer friend and sister I never I had but do now

[dukedogsmom]

I'm so glad I stopped by. I'm sure it's totally normal how you're feeling. Just don't let it get you down forever. I think you're doing so good! And I'm glad you told us how you were feeling. We can be stronger for you when you cannot. Keep your chin up and good luck tomorrow! I'm glad you've found a good person to clean your house. Don't work too much tonight. You need your rest.