Thank you to everyone for the kind messages. It is now five days since Shiraz went. I still can't believe that she has gone. When I come down in the mornings I keep expecting her to be there. Her sister Tia really doesnt know what is going on. She keeps expecting her to jump out from behind the curtains and play with her. When she realises that she is not there she gives me a really sad look which is heartbreaking. The pain is knowhere near gone but it is a tiny tiny bit less than what it has been. Having a photo of her on display is helping so I can have a little talk to her when I need to! It also helps to pour my feelings out on this web site and to hear from other cat lovers who understand how I am feeling so thank you again.